I don’t even know where to start from the last time I posted on here. Things are moving so quickly in my life right now. I’m currently 8.5 weeks out from my show in Quebec Canada. I started my new job with CBS Sacramento and I’m also managing my own business focused on Social Media Marketing. In addition to raising my girls and the daily adventures of raising teenage girls bring… Sometimes, I can’t help but feel a little overwhelmed..
It’s so important for me to strive for balance in my life. I know that life is never fully balanced, but I want to be grounded body, mind and spirit.. At this point in my life I’m thirsty for food that fuels my spirit. With that has come a lot of letting go and getting rid of. It’s absolutely baffling to me, how many un-healthy relationships, habits, and simple things that I did on a regular bases that was so ICKY for my spirit.. Crazier than realizing it, was the craziness that letting people go created. Growing can be painful sometimes, especially when you’re letting go of the pain. If that makes any sense at all. lol
If you can imagine this past weekend left me feeling pretty run down. Training is pretty intense combined with the strict diet and long days…. You can only go FAST for so long before you come to a soaring STOP.. I decided it was time to revamp the batteries and attend my second mediation class. So, after boot camp with my teammates and coach, I rushed to a 2 hour meditation workshop to accomplish quieting my mind. Unfortunately, my friggin mind was running at full throttle and it was hard to get her still. The workshop was amazing in every aspect; the sad part is my realization that this was the first time in months where I sat down and just let myself be. No demands of my job, kids, family, training, home, relationship, friends…. Just two hours of internal reflection. Let’s just say the voice inside was screaming at me.
What do you do when your inner voice is screaming? Figure out why she’s screaming so damn loud. I immediately reached out to my spiritual advisor after mediation was complete, and asked if I could have her time 1:1. Thankfully, I start this internal learning process and growth with an amazing advisor. I’m really excited to learn life tools on how to channel negative energy and thoughts. And how to facilitate and nurture dreams and growth. I believe when I get my mind quiet and my spirit aligned my inner voice will be whispering loving words. I also believe that my dreams will come true.
In the meantime, I will continue moving forward on this journey to the WBFF. I hope that I’m able to accomplish my goal of winning my pro card. I’m even more excited to chase my bigger dreams that start with this stepping stone. Something inside me tells me that I have a powerful message to share with the world. The exciting part is I’m present in the journey on how I share it.
Here’s to quieting the mind and accomplishing dreams.
~Jess
AFTER A LONG DAY!
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