My thirsty spirit lead me to meditation. YUM!

I don’t even know where to start from the last time I posted on here. Things are moving so quickly in my life right now. I’m currently 8.5 weeks out from my show in Quebec Canada. I started my new job with CBS Sacramento and I’m also managing my own business focused on Social Media Marketing.  In addition to raising my girls and the daily adventures of raising teenage girls bring… Sometimes, I can’t help but feel a little overwhelmed..

It’s so important for me to strive for balance in my life. I know that life is never fully balanced, but I want to be grounded body, mind and spirit.. At this point in my life I’m thirsty for food that fuels my spirit. With that has come a lot of letting go and getting rid of. It’s absolutely baffling to me, how many un-healthy relationships, habits, and simple things that I did on a regular bases that was so ICKY for my spirit.. Crazier than realizing it, was the craziness that letting people go created. Growing can be painful sometimes, especially when you’re letting go of the pain. If that makes any sense at all. lol

If you can imagine this past weekend left me feeling pretty run down. Training is pretty intense combined with the strict diet and long days…. You can only go FAST for so long before you come to a soaring STOP.. I decided it was time to revamp the batteries and attend my second mediation class. So, after boot camp with my teammates and coach, I rushed to a 2 hour meditation workshop to accomplish quieting my mind. Unfortunately, my friggin mind was running at full throttle and it was hard to get her still. The workshop was amazing in every aspect; the sad part is my realization that this was the first time in months where I sat down and just let myself be. No demands of my job, kids, family, training, home, relationship, friends…. Just two hours of internal reflection. Let’s just say the voice inside was screaming at me.

What do you do when your inner voice is screaming? Figure out why she’s screaming so damn loud. I immediately reached out to my spiritual advisor after mediation was complete, and asked if I could have her time 1:1. Thankfully, I start this internal learning process and growth with an amazing advisor. I’m really excited to learn life tools on how to channel negative energy and thoughts. And how to facilitate and nurture dreams and growth. I believe when I get my mind quiet and my spirit aligned my inner voice will be whispering loving words. I also believe that my dreams will come true.

In the meantime, I will continue moving forward on this journey to the WBFF. I hope that I’m able to accomplish my goal of winning my pro card. I’m even more excited to chase my bigger dreams that start with this stepping stone. Something inside me tells me that I have a powerful message to share with the world. The exciting part is I’m present in the journey on how I share it.

Here’s to quieting the mind and accomplishing dreams.

~Jess

AFTER A LONG DAY!

When in Doubt………..Follow your heart and shut off your mind!

Phhhhhhhhewwww. 11 weeks til Quebec Canada.. I’m so excited, and overwhelmed. I’m finding it really difficult training twice a day, working 8-10 hours and taking care of my family. The emotional high and lows of my day are pretty crazy as well. Today for instance, started with a team huddle required by Coach… All of us had to be at the gym at 5:15a… That meant waking up at 4:00a for me. L Is it worth it… YES… But, it does take a lot of dedication, focus and determination to stay the course. 

I started my new job with CBS three weeks ago. I love being in radio, but boy oh boy do I have my work cut out for me. In a perfect world I wish I could just train my heart out for the next 11 weeks and then come back to reality. I’m a little envious of the girls that get to do that. However, my story and journey is about overcoming… and my hope is to motivate and inspire those women who feel like they simply don’t have enough time.. Single moms especially! 

I’ve found myself filtering thru a lot lately. The further into my training and dieting the less I’m capable of taking on. Especially, negativity. I’m super sensitive to it. It doesn’t surround my world too much, but there are certainly a few people who’ve GOT TO GO! I swear, the more you develop your physical form into what your heart desires, the more you get people who tell you you can’t, you won’t, or subject you to a world where others are constantly judging you. This is what happens when others don’t follow their hearts desires and dreams. They unconsciously participate in trying to ruin yours.  Pretty sad if ya think about it. This is the realization of a powerful person… When you believe with everything you are, that you are capable of living your wildest dream, you will. Nothing can stop a heart with a burning desire. 

As I prepare for this beautiful but crazy adventure, I can’t help but to feel a little mixed on how I feel. Instead of staying in my head and listening to doubt, I’m choosing to follow my heart!

Quebec Canada, here I come!